Currently Listening Love By The Beatles All you need is love see related

meh..has it been that long?

wow so much has changed

some for the bad

others for the good

i cant say much...

ask me if you wish\

Ya...new beatles cd....ya i have it what now!

They dont have yellow submarine...

Bastards...

Or let it be!

Damn it!

Oh well!

This is it...the final curtain call

This is it...the final curtain call

Well for some reason I have been in this thinking mood. I dont know why. But my mind has been drifting towards a few people as of late.

I mean i just dont know about a lot of things anymore. I find myself as of late falling for two absoulty amazing guys. Both of which care a hell of lot for me.

Neither want to hurt me but at the same time i can see myself settling down with either of them.

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I enjoy being around them all. But i just dont know. My vaction is of dire importance so i can make this choice, I know what I want but nothing other than friendship is going to come out of this. I should not say friendship but my heart tells me that times are changing and that no matter what happens the people that i care about will be there.

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I  just ...i'm hurt....i'm  confused. I'm hurt that I can not get what I want for a very long time.

Me? I hate waiting. I hate it. I cant wait for ever.

 I want to but at the same time i have a great guy that wants to be with me. Whereas I have another guy that wants the same but things they just can get serious between us for a long ass time.

I mean...i dont know....i QUIT!

risk more than others think is safe. care more than others think is wise. dream more than others think is practical. expect more than others think is possible

Guys only just break your heart and make you cry til you want to die....

Current mood: crushed

im afraid to walk by you;
all i can hear is the loud throb
of my breaking heart

 Damn it, its offical I walked away....

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Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.

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It was for the best of course. Right? It hurts like hell...it really and truly does.

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And tonight im alone again your nowhere to be found im cold where are you? Please dont let me cry.

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Its true...i cant really sit here and say i"m fine when I'm not. He's got to figure it out for him self what he really and truly wants.

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 I dont want to see him in the pain I know he'll be in. Walking away for now causes him a little less pain and me a whole lot of pain

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Leave me here
is nothing for you
but for me
its time and day
i cant forget

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I didnt want to. I care for him a lot. I mean a lot. But damn it, it will more than likely hurt more down the road when I have to walk away and step aside...

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she acts like she doesn`t care;
but we all know she`s falling
apart without him.

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Its true. I thought I found some i could be with. Someone that cared enough to be with me. I am so mad. I'm not saying he doesnt care hes just confused.

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Guys only just break your heart and make you cry til you want to die....

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I hate the fact i got attached with out remembering the one hitch in all of this.

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I hate happy endings. You know why? Because those happy endings just lead to tragic ones, after the story's been told.
They should tell you the whole God damn story!

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I hate the fact my heart breaks right now because of what might happen.

Maybe I just need a heart of stone one that no one can break....Then I wouldnt get hurt as often..........

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I need a hug.

I need a hug from Judges

Its cold........

I need coffee end of story......

Currently Listening Far Away Pt.1 By Nickelback far away see related

quote time

here's the thing about having a relationship:
you can never look for it.
it's just like when you lose your keys,
if you look for them, you'll never find them.
you just have to wait for them to pop up
under the couch or something. so i'm playing it
as patient as i can. i'm not going to rush into
having a relationship just cuz
i'm lonely sometimes.
i'm waiting for the right person

things change && people do, too
but my love goes out to a certain few.
the ones that are there through good && bad.
i'd say they're the best friends i've ever had.

i mean, i've seen him recently, but today i really saw him. me looking at him, him looking at me;; right in the eyes, and straight to the heart. && i could feel it;; i could feel him. it was amazing. it's there between us, i just wish he wasn't too afraid to see.

&& sometimes all a person really needs is
a hand to hold, && a heart to understand.

i was born to be stubborn. a little bossy. to push people, to push myself. i was taught to never take life for granted. to live a little, to love with everything i have. i learned to never give up, to believe in myself. & most of all, to fight for myself.